At this point, I do not know how to react. My feelings are depressed and I completely collapsed. How life changes? Within nanoseconds, seconds, fractions, minutes, hours, you never know. Well, when I ask myself how to take things ahead I am blank. How curious is life? It fulfills its curiosity without answering and until you wait for an answer it takes a different turn and states you with another curiosity and same goes on. When will it answer?
For many of us stating, understanding and moving ahead gets quite easy, and it has to be because you can’t fail in attempting and answering them, but how about when you fail to understand? Who is responsible? Is it your mind, your heart, your senses, or you yourself? We all know that we are governed by our senses still these senses fail to answer and submit us a query to resolve. If we are so profound in handling our senses then why pain? It is that we have set answers to all our logical and illogical questions or is it, we take the call any minute and time.
Today, I felt how miserable things can make you. The dilemma that you are in can be ever broken and a new surrounding can be brought up by its side. If, I find myself restless and hopeless in the very next moment how can I entitle myself to new rays? Is it possible? Well, I do not have an answer to it. I have been trying so hard to merge myself with my near surrounding, but the prior question is how? How can I? People say take life practically because it has to go on. Is life for people or people are for life? I am still unable to understand how exactly our whole system, society, the nation and we as an individual understand the various facets of life.
I do not know how sensible and foolish I am, but I just believe or consider that you should have real guts to forget and forgive. I try to practice it out but fail while attempting. I try to make myself understand, but I fail to make my heart understand. It pains, its roars, bleeds and cries for the unclaimed separation but the next moment it shouts, play, mend and smile takes up. If it goes now and then well how to move on further? I seriously do not have answers to these questions the only thing that I feel after pouring my feeling is just silence, silence in the depth of my heart, my eyes, my talks, actions and I myself.