He says, “Forget me and live your life with a true relation because it is difficult for me to say yes to you.” Is it so? Is it possible? Well, for him, it was quite easy to discard me just like a piece of paper, which was stamped by ink and has now lost its glory with the faded time and memories. However, still my heart is not ready to accept the fact and often conflict with my mind to eradicate his presence but finally, to say I am a failure, failure to win his trust, failure to comfort his mind, failure to be compatible and failure to completely understand him.
What was it then? Wasn’t it a true relation that I have always live to, or yet I need to find someone else who could take care of mine? Well, to say I don’t find any truth in it. I have always felt a need of him and would ever feel that I need to live for him. My happiness, well-being, prosperity, opportunities are committed to my mate and then…….. And then, he states me…. “See, I understand you are sensible but this sensibility is completely emotional and emotions don’t take rigid shapes, so you have to seek the better option and got to settle down at one go.”
However, how to settle, if your mind and heart are at different places, if your happiness and the source to it are apart, if your love and passion is completely alienated with each other? Do you have an answer to it? No, not at all you can never ever find an answer to it because they are incomparable and vital to your soul and can be only felt with strong bonding. More, who is going to make him understand this? Is there anyone? He can’t discuss, neither speaks about me and within a fraction, he imposed decision on me, but why?
I know why? Because I am a stranger to him after years of intimacy, I am a stranger after spending my glorious days with him, I am a stranger after understanding that I care for him.
“Is this the punishment I deserve” No answer and the whole of the silence merge to be the one with few droplets that randomly followed each other, witnessed my eyes and ran like shower and then with drops and shower, And shower and drops, yet to find, what for?